Broken

I am broken and I don't know how to fix myself.

Actually that's not exactly true. I know what I should be doing - what I want to be doing. I just seem incapable of doing it.

Maybe that's the problem. There are so many things that I think I should be doing - improving myself, organizing things, labeling things, scheduling things, doing things. There are so many things and I'm just overwhelmed. Or maybe it's because there is no plan, no prioritization of these self-improvements, so instead of having a single thing to start on, I'm faced with everything at once and of course it doesn't work.

That's a thought. Collect all of these meta-things, organize and prioritize them. Try to change a single thing a week. Identify everything that is broken, all the ideas for fixing myself, and instead of trying to fix everything - fix one little thing. I'll still be broken, but just a tad less broken. Which is an improvement. Which is something.